I am so sorry for your loss.
Nothing can take away the pain you are feeling, but it may help to share your experience with others.
It can be comforting and therapeutic to connect with those who have also lost children. This is a short list of some of the resources that are available to you. Please seek professional help at any time in your process.
I hope your deep grief can find a way to become a new normal of loving remembrance.
Mary Vaneecke